The Violent Desire!

There’s something so deeply profound about the desire to feel another person, to want to absorb beauty of another person, and desire to attach one to another. The desire to be intimate to feel this abstract comforting desire of unleashing on another, of connecting, and an urge that is primal.

It’s desire that I know I will never quite be able to attain; will only be able through fantasy. Its desire that’s rooted permanently, attaching itself to my mind, and ingraining its self in me. One I can quite ever escape or be free of.

As I walk the bustling city taking in the scent of skies, and staring beyond great beyond. My mind is flooded with this desire; this want that is so inherently strange, and bizarre. A want that is violent, and profound.

As I sit upon great bench stair out into the vastness of the blue sky! The urge rings through my body that sensation! My imagination starts to run wild with vidid, and colorful thoughts that entice me, and give me small rush of excitement! Make me want to run in corner, and hide in a great dark cave privately act out my fantasies.

As I sit down reflect on after a long bustling day, and after ages of indulging in my fantasies. I began to yearn for real thing but the experience rooted in romance. I began to wonder power of ability to not only feel another person’s beauty, and sensation of sharing one’s self with another but also power of love.

As I sit alone with only thing about myself being darkness. Only myself to keep company my mind begins to wonder of someone to love to share intimate experience with. Sadness, and pain begins to creep as I realize just how unattainable my wants are due to vast hole, and darkness that lurks in from me.


It’s a desire that at times evokes great distress, and discomfort as I roam people. Look at people who I desire to feel, to touch, and to share myself with! People who entice me, make me into hungry disturbed beast. Make me awkwardly realizes in much shame that they bare very little to no interest to my primal urges, and I must hide these feelings in dark.

It’s desire that also at times disturbs me. Will this desire unravel my darkest of tendencies, will it dominate me, and truly reveal beast that lurks from within. Or can I control, and contain myself as I wrestle in horror over this very disturbing possibility.

It’s a desire that can evoke so many feelings from excitement, quick sensation of joy to horror to discomfort, and embarrassment! It’s giant avalanche of feelings that hit like thunder! That makes you want to explode into millions of pieces.

It’s a violent desire; a desire for me that goes beyond cosmo, and universe itself. Only attainable deep within space; a desire that makes me question why I earn for it so much in first place. Yet it’s desire that will always evoke violent joy over the feelings it contains, sadness over the distant, horror over the beast, and embarrassment over urge for these surreal feelings; it’s a violent sensation!